This will be the first mother's day without my mom. it definitely feels strange. i miss chatting with her on the phone, or sharing conversation over coffee. i miss sharing stories old and new. i just miss her.
i also missed her last mother's day here on earth...because my sister threw her a BBQ and didn't invite me. and that sucks. and i'm still bitter about it. wouldn't you be?
how is it that my own family throws my mom a BBQ and doesn't invite me? i don't think i will ever get over that. very sad.
but i am also moving on...
because i have three little boys who i love so much! and we will make NEW memories for the many mother's days that follow. :)
i will always remember my mom and i love her immensely...but i cannot dwell in the past or on the sadness or the fact that she's no longer with us. i know i will see her again...some day.
for now my focus must be on the present...my family, my husband, my boys.
i love you mom.